*Please be advised: The following paragraphs are pure frustration and shouldn’t be taken seriously**
I’m a soo fucking sick of not getting cast. I had a really great audition for this show with the building stage. I mean, one of those auditions where you come out being all like “NAILED IT”.And while, honestly, I dont think I coulda done it anyway cuz Im already doin Long Days Journey Into Night, I think I was totally one of the strongest females there. HOWEVER, I feel that I didnt get cast because I have baby face and still look like Im 18 compared to everyone else there.
While Im sure when Im 40 I will be grateful, right now it juts FUCKING SUCKS. I get cast in dick and I feel like half the time its just cuz I dont look old enough to be playing opposite the other characters.
Im jealous of Mallory. Not in a “i dont want her to succeed kinda way” but in a “it must be nice to be talented, pretty, and be able to play late twenties”. Its just a fucking desert for any girl who looks younger than like 28. Its just not fucking fair. Life isnt fair. It should be. I should have lots of parts and be famous. Me and Mallory should be in shows at Steppenwolf and Chicago Shakes and have matching orange segways and live in a huge mansions dating really funny and cute comedians!!! Mal can have Michael Showalter if I can have Paul Rudd. I should be able to eat McDonalds all day and still weigh like 100 pounds. I should be able to pull off pastel colors with out looking scary and ghost like. I should have an awesome boyfriend who loves me! I should be the Princess of Norway!! I should own a Narwhale named Tootles! I shouldnt have to pay Sallie Mae EVER A-FUCKING-GAIN! AND does anyone know if Silverfish bite!?!
Poop. Fuck. Damnit. BARF.
Ok. Cool I feel a bit better.Also, I applied for grad school in Scotland today.
